Back from vacation earlier!

I’m sorry, but I won’t post anything right now… I’m too tired.

And I was away, nothing happened.

I mean, I met the two hottest guys I’ve seen in the face of earth, but they were both my uncle’s employees. Even if they wanted to, they were just not allowed to even look at me. Besides, I have no free space in my mind for them.

Oh, my iPod shuffle japanese edition arrived! *smiles*

And Nick came to welcome me at the airport…

And I’m going out with Michael at friday! We’re going to a very cool chinese with a so perfect karaoke stage! We’ll celebrate my “sister’s” birthday. Nick is not coming because he doesn’t want to…

Go figure.

See ya later!

Oh, Nick called me.

And he invited himself to come over tomorrow.

The same day Michael will return from Sidney after the exams.

I guess I stay with Nick, but I’ll be very worried about Michael. He’s sad and he’s acting weird, as if he was ok. But I feel he is not.

But, hey, do you know what worries me most?

I NEED MONEY.

Sorry, guys, but things are difficult…

Oh, and I bought this gorgeous green bikini with a belt!!!

And a kinda gangsta pink hat, very similar to the one they have in Asia Jam store! =D

But forget about it, I will never show my face in this blog, imagine if I am posting a picture of me in a bikini?

Haha.

Ok, today’s post is really simple.

WHY WON’T THEY CALL ME?!!!!!!

I mean, I’ll be going to family’s new hotel for the next 4 weeks, and my not boyfriend – which we’ll call Nick, like the Backstreet Boy – nor Michael have called me! 4 weeks is TOO MUCH TIME TO SPEND WITHOUT THEM!! Not when I’m used to be so close!

Hm…. ok, there’s my cousin Jake and dear former brother Vince (because he is the grandson of my granpa’s best friend!), but Jake is all about fooling around, which I so do not want, while Vince… well… I haven’t seen him in 4 years. I would like to keep it that way, thank god we have a large hotel.

But forget about them, I hardly care for their existance!

Again, Michael is my main worry… I mean, sometimes I feel he just can’t be on his own, he can’t stand loneliness… and Canadian has decided to go back to Canada, and she will go when I return, appearantly. Plus, he is trying to get to the hardest university in the country, he is studing like crazy! Really, sometimes I fear he’ll jump off the window at any time when I’m not watching…

Nick is is driving me crazy as well, he called me every single day in this week to make sure we where going out today, but guess what?

He didn’t show up.

 Try to guess how I’m feeling about it. Now he won’t even pick up the phone.

I know I shouldn’t pray for someone of his family to dead but… I can’t help it. It’s the ONLY excuse I’ll take!

I bought the most cute bra for today, see? I want to kill him.

ANYWAY…

Tomorrow will be a full day!

I’ll go SHOPPING, yes!

I need new bikinis and other beach clothing… but bikinis are my favorites, for sure!

God, get this boys out of my mind, will ya?

I couldn’t talk to Lucas yesterday – this is a true name, now I’ll know if he is really reading this! – thanks to my mother and the rain, and I can’t reach him yet.

I hate his brother for his simple existance.

But really, I’m happy! I’ll be 4 weeks in paradise for free! I love this rich side of my family…

God, I’m not happy. I can’t stay away from them for 4 whole weeks. It’s too much to ask me. What if Michael needs somebody to talk? What if Nick have another EMO jealous crisis and do something to Michael? And the worst, what if my mom connect my msn and talk to Lucas?!!!!

Really, going away for 4 weeks is dangerous.

I wish at least Lucas could go with me…

I mean, such a perfect place, and I’ll have the best suite just for me… it gives me “ideas”…

Yeah, so now that the past have uncovered, I’ll explain the fact that made sweet Alexa blog about this whole thing…

It was New Year’s Eve, right?

My boyfriend, the sweet blond who is a total geek (as the other boys surrounding me are too…) decided this year he wouldn’t be a geek and would go to a real party in a night club, or something.

I, as a geek girl, decided to have a geek New Year’s Eve, playing Soul Calibur III, Final Fantasy X-2, Silent Hill III among other games with my really geek friends!

Of course, amazing voice was there too… let’s call him Michael (as the one from The Princess Diaries series… geeky and great singer! =3). He was feeling terrible, because his girlfriend was thinking about going to Canada and everything. He was sad and angry, and kept complaining he was unsure if she loved him as much as he did love her… thinking about it now, he was acting really cute, so selfish and childish! =3

But back then, I was feeling mad at the girl! I mean, how dared she make him suffer that much? I’m aware he has no right to demand her to stay, but still, if she was thinking about going, why she started dating?

Anyway… while everyone fought over who was playing now and what game they would play, we sat behind everyone,  embraced. Then he kind layed down, his head over my lap, and I caressed his hair, thinking how much I wished I dared to to something more, to kiss him, or anything, to take his mind off her, while he just stared at me.

Then we went to sleep. It was a small room, with two single beds, and a mattress right in the middle of them, touching both beds.

In that mess, slept 6 people… 1 couple in a bed, another couple in the matress and the two of us, in the other bed.

It was not the first time we shared a bed, but still, it’s always difficult to me. I fear to hold him while I sleep, or to do anything weird. When I was pushing myself the closer I could to the wall and the furthest away from him as possible, he asked in a whisper: “May I… hold you?”

My face went purple and hot, but thank God the lights were out… but I relaxed and allowed him to hold me. Then he whispered again “You’re the person I love the most in the world, you know that, don’t you?”

I didn’t reply, but we stood like this the whole night.

I was sort of ok to that… but morning came.

And the girl who sleeped with her boyfriend in the mattress asked me when we were making the breakfast: “So… what are you going to do?”

She didn’t had to explain what she was talking about.

I had really lost my mind, I have a boyfriend, for Christ’s sake!!!!

So, instead of going to a shrink, I started a blog with a fake name!

Brilliant, huh?

So, when our pretty girl started dating, a very uncomfortable situation appeared! The amazing voice boy was now with his heart broken, and she couldn’t stand it. Things started going through her mind… she wanted to ease his suffering, but she could think of only one way, which was really… physical.She didn’t dare. Time went by, and the sweet blond boy was always jealous because of the amazing voice boy, even if the girl didn’t show all her affection to him the way she wanted to. Until she convinced sweet blond that amazing voice was just a friend… but was that correct, with all that going through her head?And she was very physical with sweet blond too, and for real. She liked to be touched… and she liked to comfort him that way. She never got to lay with him, but sometimes, she would hold her wish for it silently, because it didn’t feel right yet. It was now one year of friendship with amazing voice. They felt like they had the same blood, they were always concerned about each other. Sweet blond started to get used to it, and even to be friends with him, to please the girl. The event that gather amazing voice and the girl was happening again, it’s 4^th edition, and they traveled all together, with a lot more people.But sweet blond got a friend’s house to sleep in, instead of the hotel of the girl. Amazing voice was also in a different hotel, near the event and away from the girl. 

The thing is that amazing voice was always around her hotel at night, to dine with her and hang out… so, she spent the day with sweet blond, and the night with amazing voice, hanging out in town. She never felt so close to him before… and yet, when they returned home, amazing voice told her he was in love… with a Canadian girl he met there. They were not dating, but he knew she liked him.  The girl didn’t do anything but to smile and joke, saying she would welcome a new person in her family… her heart bleeding. But she still had sweet blond, who was all about her. Wasn’t it supposed to be enough? She loved him, and she knew it! But there was something more than that… and she realized that she didn’t love amazing voice, not like a woman would love a man. She loved him as a brother or something even more, that didn’t seem real… she wanted him to be happy, she wanted to make him happy… it is confusing. Ever since blue girl broke his heart, she was always in his house, and they even slept together in the same bed… even now, every time they sleepover in the same house, the share the bed… it was normal to al of their friends, because they were so close… but how that feels to her, will be a subject for another post. When the distant boy showed up on-line again, she felt almost as if her passion had faded… but he told her about his problems which made her worried about him… and again, distant boy got all of the girl’s attention to himself. More than anything, she wanted to be near him… and a million things crossed her mind… she thought of him and fantasized… but he still wanted to save his relationship with that other girl.Our girl’s heart was torn in triangle.  We’re near present time, now. Distant boy broke up with his girlfriend, and the girl felt as if he was hers now. But there was still amazing voice, who was dating the Canadian… and who is suffering, because she wants to go back to
Canada. And of course, she is still dating sweet blond, who she does love seriously. What is the girl to do?!

Come back again and find out.

This is the story of a little 12 year old fat girl, that all of sudden found herself really pretty and thin, once she cured a little hormonal disorder she had. Then the world, that was once books, was now boys. From distance, but still in touch. Explaining better, all of sudden every boy in the school noticed her, but thanks to Jane Austen, she wanted only one boy. The one she hadn’t found yet.

But boys are fun. To tease them, to play with them, became her distraction and main talent, at least to say. And then, in a Christmas when she was 14, she got a cell phone. And met a boy in a sort of cell phone chat. But he lived so so far away… Yes, she fell in love with him, but he didn’t seem to care about her, at least not the way she did care about him. But the relationship grew anyway…

In that same year, her father, who was divorciated, started dating a lady with a son, a little older than herself. She played with him, but he was better than her. She didn’t love him, but she needed him… even because he was the only one there. It was nothing serious, but it was unique. People in school didn’t matter anymore. Her friends didn’t understood her, and she let everyone around her fade… Her world consisted in the cell phone boy and the brother… the brother who could really confort her. But he wanted things she wasn’t ready for… she wanted those things, but it didn’t feel right for her. She realized he didn’t care for her at all, he only wanted to have fun with her… When things broke out, she devoted herserlf even more to boy in the other side of the country… who now seem to feel the same way she did. And from the cell phone, now they were voice chatting at yahoo! messenger and msn. She confessed herself to him, and told him her dreams and fantasies… but one day, the got out of touch, and when they finnally got together on-line again, this boy had a girlfriend.

She didn’t know what to say when he told her… but she loved him. All she could do was to desire for his happinness.

School was still sad, but at least she found new friends. True friends, definately.

Time went by, and she thought she wouldn’t be able to ever talk to him again. Wich was not really a problem, because he had once again disappeared.

And someone else got into her life. This sweet boy singing with an amazing voice…

She noticed him first, but he was the one who came to her. They exchanged their e-mail addresses,and she wrote him as soon as she got home.

But he never replied.

 Two months went away, and she heard of this concert happening in a distant city. She decided to go with one of her friends, in a excursion group. And guess who was organizing it all? Yes, the boy with the sweet voice.

 The trip was really a mess, but it resulted in new fantastic friends, and a bond between the girl and the boy… Yes, the girl was almost tottally happy again! But her mind was still set on the distant boy… who appeared again, months later. He was still happy with his girlfriend, he really loved her and all, and our heroin decided to let go of him, against her will.

And when she thought of taking a chance with the amazing voice boy, one of her friends, the blue girl, tottally unaware of her feelings, confessed she was in love with that boy. The girl kept her feelings to herself then… and did her best to get the two of them together.

 And 2006 begins, with our lonely girl desiring for truth, simply. She started to make new friends, trying to take her mind off those two boys, wishing the best for both.

And this sweet blond boy appeared, with a gentle voice and manners, and they became acquaitances.

One day in sunny june. Blue girl shatters the amazing voice boy’s heart, and he comes to our heroin, to tell her about it. Lost in the middle of her feelings, and worried about his pain, she’s awaken by a suddenly kiss in a movie theater… by the sweet blond boy!

And things seemed to start to work then! She was now in love with the blond boy, and he in was too in love with her! They are the perfect couple!

It would be so if her mind wasn’t so uneasy… and now things get complicated! Wanna know why? Come back again tomorrow!